You never see the way I look into your eyes..

You never realize the love I feel inside..

*Brian told me that I am a bit silly about this thing… I do, gosh.. *I have too much emotion spots in my brain. both.. haha XD

Klo lo ngrasa lebih dari orang lain, dalam hal apapun itu, tolong deh jangan “sombong”

Show some respect to another people! you don’t live alone in this world..

Kesal gw sama orang-orang seperti itu..

Coba lo liat di luar sana, banyak orang-orang hidup susah, yang gak seberuntung lo.

Berkorban, hanya untuk bisa makan dan tidur tenang malam ini.

Pasti lo gak pernah ngerasain kan..? hidup enak, apa-apa tinggal minta

wah wahh..

like I care though,,,

kesaaaaaaaal….

huh..

My Chemical Romance

Blood

Well They encourage your complete cooperation,
Send ya roses when they think ya need to smile
I can’t control myself because I don’t know how
And they love me for it honestly I’ll be here for awhile
So give them blood, blood
Gallons of the stuff
Give them all that they can drink and it will never be enough
So give them blood, blood, blood
Grab a glass because there’s going to be a flood
A celebrated man amongst the gurneys
They can fix me proper with a bit of luck
The doctors and the nurses they adore me so
But it’s really quite alarming
Cause I’m such an awful f*ck
(Why thank you)
I gave you blood, blood
Gallons of the stuff
I gave you all that you could drink
And it has never been enough
I gave you blood, blood, blood
I’m the kind of human wreckage that you love

haha, I just luv this song!!

try to listen?

http://youtube.com/watch?v=ylzTJwBW5pM,

Helo heloo..

*uhm…mw ngetik jadi kurang enak, koq tombol  enter laptop gw jadi aneh ya..?gak sreg mencetnyah..

Arrgh…bete nih,

*tuwh kan..mw enter aja susah..

Okay..okay..let’s start now..

Mocca, Once Upon a Time

Once upon a time, when the sky was covered with blue..

Once upon a time, when the sun was smiling too..

We’re just common people..with an ordinary look

We’re just common people..with an ordinary love..

and..

Once upon a time, when I fell in love with you..

“when I fell in love with you..”

When I fell in love with you, you, or you.. *:P, I’m going down. I have been dreaming about “a beautiful love story” ever since that moment when you said that you love me.

I’m just an ordinary girl, I wish about ordinary things..just the same things with another ordinary girls in the universe. Didn’t I deserve to have a beautiful love story? Don’t laugh at me. Cinderella, it is a story. But, of course it can be a “true story”, it can be a reality. I don’t know what is wrong with me, or maybe something is not right with you guys. Except that quote :”we are young and stupid”, I have no idea why this thing doesn’t work for me.

I do want you. I do. You could be that boy and I could be that girl. But in the end, I realized that I am not that girl. Here it comes, another story of a broken heart. Pathetic, isn’t it?

Well.. I’ve got left behind, I feel sorry about everything, I feel sorry about you, I feel sorry about myself, I fell sorry about her, and her and another her.. I feel sorry that I’m all alone, *hehe, not at all . I have GOD with me. I feel sorry about all the stupid things I’ve done for this, (except for the lesson to be learned).

Since that time, I have changed my mind. I moved from a state of “being single and pathetic” to the state of “being single and happy ”. With difficulty and after great effort. You know what I meant. Unfortunately, there is also a path to go back to the 1st state, again. There is a way back. I can’t helped myself. I am moving from a state to another state, again and again. -_- It’s not good, I knew it.

As time goes by, I’m trying to open my mind (and my eyes *:P). When it wides open, I can see “you” there. I thought about moving to another state : being double and happy, oops.. ahahaa, just kidding. The new state is “in a relationship (again) and happy”. Nah..not that simple. Now, I wonder, what if I want you but you don’t even know me? You don’t even recognize me. So, how am I gonna tell you about what I feel? What if I’m rejected? What if, you are not the right one for me? I won’t tell you. I’ll choose pretending, like usual. I am consciously hurting myself. What if I want you, you want me, but you are already with someone else? You have no right to taking her for granted. Neither do I. All about the karma’s thing, bla bla bla. I’m not ashamed to be afraid. For some cases, what if you want me but I don’t really want you? I am sorry for that. Please, forgive me. (Maybe) you are a good guy, or (maybe) you are the kindest and the sweetest person I know, and I need you, but I’m not that girl(at this time)………………..

It is complicated.

Lucky for you, who are being that boy and that girl and together now. I am happy for you. What am I trying to say is : it’s not easy to find a right guy. Gosh. I wish I could. C’mon, show yourself up, I am waiting for you..

Hmm..cukup sudah, mw ngerjain Tugas DAA lagi.. It’s 0:11 am..

Dear Brother…I love you so much. It hurts me when you sad. That you didn’t make it.. It hurts me too.. I wish I could do something for you, not just something, I’ll do everything for you….but I can’t.. It’s beyond my reach.. It’s just between you and God, now.. I can’t help you……………….. Arrrgh, I wish I could. You do it you own. It’s your future. God……. please help him… You are the originator of the heavens and the earth: and when You wills a thing to be, You but says unto it: “Be” and “it is”…… Help him, God.. Please…….

Dear Brother.. We called it “life”, Struggling! Life is learning, learning from your mistakes….. Learning from your failings and failures. Learning from pain. Learning to be more stronger that you are.. Learning to be hard core. Learning to be better. Learning to say: “Alhamdulillah” for everything you’ve got….

Dear Brother….I’m happy when you smile….

Dear Brother….I do love you so much..

 Behind the door, I am a person, Don’t bother me, Leave me alone, Let’s do it, Don’t think about it, just do it, I can feel it, I have it, of course. I’m not the girl you want me to be. I’m not here. I worried about you. You don’t even know me. I am just a person. Single. Adorable, God. I supposed to be you. I am me. To love myself. I miss you mom, honestly. I miss you. I would like to cry, It sounds great! But I’m NOT!. I need to smile. I have a lot of things to prove. That damn grades. I hate you. I hate me. I hate this. I want to be happy. I want to make them happy. Like everybody else, I just want to go home. Someday I will. I just want what I want to do. I want to say no. I need to be honest. I need to keep secrets. That I don’t care about. Bother me, I don’t mind. Sounds in my mind. Who are you? Or in my heart, deep inside. Whatever. Time to time. I walked away. I can stand this. I need to do a thing. There’s always a thing. I want to be happy. I need to be cure. Help me. I need help. Am I asking for help? GOD, Just GOD. He’s EVERYTHING. I need not to waste my time. I have to say no. You are not mine. I saw you. I saw you. I saw you. But you didn’t recognize me. I mean, who am I? WHO THE HELL I AM?? I quit. I quit. I quit. It’s just silenc, and I’m in. Dissappear. P.L.E.A.S.U.R.E, H.E.A.V.E.N. Just enough… You have to save youself. Nobody will do it for you. Me? I WILL BE ME, ENOUGH, I AM FEED UP!!! SHUT..I am tired………..It’s done or not, I don’t know………………………………………………….I’m just tired. But I DON’T CARE! Just go away. I need to be me. PRETENDING. All alone. Tired.. Quit AND Enough. Let’s see. Sooner or later. It’ll be me. Okay I got it. Just save them, GOD. Please, I am nobody. I can’t do anything. I’m tired ……………………………………………….

eh duid gw balik lagi..

haghaghaghaghag…

memang klo merasa itu hak kita, harus diperjuangkan..

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